It's been a while

And a lot of things have happened but I don't have the physical or emotional energy to talk about all of that right now. I don't really have much to say but I was tired of looking at the melodrama that was my last post.

Now I'm nervous and scared for reasons I don't want to divulge. I keep messing everything up left and right, no matter how hard I try not to. I don't know how to fix what I've already done and I don't know how to fix myself so I'll quit.

They say when it rains, it pours. Apparently I forgot my umbrella and I'm REALLY tired of getting wet...