I thought 3 day weekends were supposed to be refreshing?

Yeah well mine wasn't. Actually I had a great weekend, I'm just grumpy because it's gorgeous outside and I'm stuck in a room with no windows. Hmmm, I wonder if it's better to not be able to see the sunshine outside or to be able to see it and still not get to go out in it. I'm not sure but I guess it's a whole grass is greener on the other side thing.

I'm still feeling blah and getting really frustrated about it. It's like my feelings are turned off so I'm just existing right now, I hate it when I get like that. I feel like it's the same thing over and over again- get up, go to work, get off work, hopefully get to see my friends and my boyfriend, go to sleep. I don't know what I'm looking for which makes it even more frustrating. I can't sit still but I'm too lazy to do anything so I'm just stuck I guess.

Like I said, my weekend was awesome. I went to Lexington with Gerry for a wedding and it was great. I think we may be a little sick of each other because we've spent a LOT of time together lately. Personally, I find it funny because I'm pretty sure that has yet to happen, well at least on my end- I can't speak for him. He's so sweet because he's extremely patient with me when I go off the deep end and start crying for the stupidest reasons. I love him so much and I'm so glad he puts up with me.

But enough about that mushy stuff. Sunday I went to Rosario's and drank some beer, it was a good time. I didn't even mind when the drunk girl that peed all over herself laid on top of me. Well, maybe I minded but let's just say I didn't get pissed off. Plus I got to hang out with the other half of my brain and I haven't been seeing nearly enough of Smess lately, I was going through withdrawal. Isn't it crazy how someone can be totally separate from you but you feel like one person?

Ugh, I suppose I should be studying for the GRE right now. Nothing like a standardized test to me you feel like a total moron. According to my scores, I don't know how I manage to dress myself every day. And why in god's name would I need to know how to find the area of a circle? Maybe so I know how big to make the hamburgers at McDonald's. That's where I'm heading if I don't remember how to do algebra, hell I don't even remember arithmetic apparently.

Then again, I do see the book I'm currently reading just sitting there all lonely. Maybe I can put off studying for just one more day ;-)

One week of summer so far

So the first week is complete, oh how I love summer. It's alright that it's been a little cold and I've had a cold for what seems like forever. The birds are chirping and sun's out, that's what is important to me.

I'm at work again, just sitting here twiddling my thumbs. This is really the only time I feel like writing in my blog (except if I'm upset of course), I think its mostly out of sheer boredom. This working full time stuff is crap, I want to enjoy my summer, not spend it in the Fidelity Dungeon. Oh well, I desperately need the money, so what can I do?

Gerry's in Cancun this week and I miss him like crazy. Don't tell him I said anything though, I don't want him to know. Yeah right, we all know that's bull because when I see him on Saturday and I'll probably knock him down because I'll be so excited to see him. What can I say? Sometimes I'm like a cocker spaniel. I suppose I shouldn't start humping his leg in front of his mom though...

I've been feeling restless and out of sorts today. It's like I can't sit still but nothing I think of doing appeals to me. I finally talked myself into going to sleep last night but it took FOREVER but I'm not really tired today. I hate this feeling, like I'm going to jump out of my skin. There's nothing I can really do to get rid of it, I just have to wait for it to go away.

Alright well nothing exciting going on in the land of me (as usual). Guess I'm just a boring person like that. Work and sleep, pretty much all I do. Well, except for the occasional drunken stupor...

Free at last!

Thank god, I didn't know if I could take much more. Finally, this very long and tedious semester is over, I'm free! On an even happier note, I somehow managed to pull all A's out of my ass again (a feat which never ceases to amaze me). Now I can sit back and relax for a little while, well hopefully :)

I'm feeling very happy lately, even though I'm working tons of hours between Fidelity and the hospital. I think it's because I have a lot less responsibility for a little while. Plus Gerry's home so that makes me smile every time I think about it.

Yeah, about that- I'm a little nervous as to what's going to happen. I mean, if you think about it, we've only really spent one month (the first month) together before he went back to Lexington. Since then it's maybe been 2 weeks at a time. Now I'm not saying I regretted convincing him to go out with me or that I think we won't get along, but you never know what's going to happen. While the unknown can be exciting, it can also be really frickin scary. Oh well, I suppose there's only one way to find out...

But anyway, I'm pretty much done. What can I say, my life isn't interesting unless I have something to whine about ;)

Almost there

Oh jeez, is this semester over yet? It seems like its dragged on forever. Right now I should be studying for my Behavior Modification test and then my World Religions exam but I don't really feel like doing either. What I feel like doing, however, is laying my head down right on this here desk and taking a nice long nap. I suppose sleep will have to wait for a while.

Okay so nothing new to report here really. I had a wonderful weekend down in Lex-Vegas and I'm looking forward to the stellar conclusion of the semester so I get to see my friends again. Hey, I only cried once this weekend, go me. I thought I did pretty good; and that one time was stupid but I got over it. Pat on the back, thank you, thank you.

I feel like I haven't seen anybody in FOREVER. I've been so flippin busy with work-class-work-homework that I haven't really gotten the chance to just chill. Of course, now that I'm thinking about it that's not really true but we'll just stick with what I said initially. Christ, I feel like I've hung out with Samantha and Aviles more than my real friends these past couple of weeks. That's really sad too because I don't really see them that much either. Besides, I'm done with all the drama that follows them around, I loathe drama. That's right, I don't just hate it, I LOATHE it (look it up). And yes I may be hypocritical because I myself create some drama in my life, especially when it comes to Gerry (sorry sweetheart) but for the love of Buddha, what I do ain't nothin compared to some other stuff I've seen.

I'm going to practice some self-control before I say something that could come back to haunt me. I've got stuff on my mind but nothing terribly important. I think from now on I should wait at least 2 days before I bring something up that I'm upset about because chances are, after 2 hours I'm over it. There are few things that are important enough for me to say upset over and I'm really tired of making those around me (ahem Gerry) feel bad because I'm a blubbering idiot sometimes.

Yep, I think that's good enough. I'm done rambling for now, off to do something constructive, or play poker (which I consider both fun and constructive-it works in Brea-Anne logic, don't question).